Motivation Towards School(work).

I've wanted to write something else for a while now, and this is the best topic I can think of.

For me, motivation is very difficult. In fact, I imagine it is for a lot of people. Moony revises and works because of the anxiety and fear of not doing well, but I've never had that. Sure, I fear not doing well, but I can never seem to really do anything about it and it goes away as soon as I distract myself.

Yesterday I was supposed to be doing work due next week, but instead I got my hair cut and took photos of myself as Castiel from Supernatural, after spending the whole afternoon at my friend's house watching League of Gentleman series 2, Doctor Who and more A Very Potter Musical.

I'm not really sure what expression to use so I usually go for 'absent'.

Today I promised to do said work, but it's 3:22pm and I'm about to rewatch Doctor Who while Moony watches it for the first time, and I've been reading high-school setting fanfiction about Supernatural. And that's what lead me to this post.

My forms of motivation come in odd ways. I have my pile of Uni prospectus books beside me, with the place I want to go to most on top, so I can see it. This works as a form of motivation because otherwise I just feel guilty for not working towards those B grades I need.

The High School AUs (Alternate Universe, for any non-fandom folk) make me want to work because I can see these people I admire in similar situations. Castiel, for example, usually is the one to knuckle down and try to work properly, while Dean isn't so much like that. Or Lestrade, from BBC Sherlock, is the kid that gets through the grades but doesn't work too hard, whereas Mycroft gets everything done the day he's set it and properly revises, and eventually encourages Lestrade to do the same.

Hell, Hermione Granger makes revision timetables - that Ron and Harry don't follow - and that makes me feel like I should get something done.

And there's Moony, because we want to live together in Brighton, but that all hinges on me actually getting in. And that won't happen unless I work for it. Having her reminding me that I need to be working encourages me in a way that only wanting to impress your partner and make them proud can.

All the people and characters I admire, they went through what I'm going through, and they did well. I want to be like that, I want to be there. I want to move away and live my life, but I won't get that by lazing around and doing nothing.

Brighton, here I come.