In my Critical Thinking (which starts tomorrow) we have to bring in
an article showing persuasive text. So, instantly, I remembered there is
a double page spread on exactly that every month in Doctor Who
Magazine. It is literally perfect for the assignment criteria and I
don't really have any other magazines that can fit the bill better than
this.
I mentioned it happily to my parents, and was
greeted with 'just an idea, but this time try not to make every
assignment and essay about Sherlock Holmes or Doctor Who.' I got this
speech a few years ago when I was told to make a leaflet about something
of interest to try to inform other people, and chose Doctor Who, since
I'm very well informed and others are not. I did one leaflet on it, in
year eight. That's pretty much it.
Apparently my primary school teachers had told me the same - or
more, my parents, that everything I did was Apocalypse, Doctor Who or
Zombies. It was year six. What other things were there? Were they
expecting boy bands and make up?
The point is that in my primary
school, I don't ever remember being told that, or doing any of that. No
one I knew liked Doctor Who. My parents didn't listen. I had no phone,
no outside source. Of course my work would be about what I love, because
no one but the blank page would listen to me.
To add to this, the first thing I thought of was Mark Gatiss. This is him.
Isn't
he wonderful. He is my idol and everything I want to be when I get
around to growing up. Or at least being an adult. It was through a
signing with him that I met my fantastic understanding partner. I owe
him everything. He was obsessed with Hammer Horror as a child, and
everything he did in school was a horror story. He had the task 'a day
at the beach' or some such thing, and made the family/kid in his story
find a severed head in a bucket because that was what interested him.
Not severed heads, horror. And he has gone on to be magnificent. He has
been involved with and worked on everything he could have wanted.
Sherlock, Horror in many forms, James Bond, Doctor Who. Literally
everything. Actor, writer (including one instance of gay erotica),
scriptwriter, idol.
So if he can center all his school work around one subject, why the hell can't I?
I was also told that my brother's girlfriend is the nicest he's
had, and I should feel lucky she's in my sixth form in the year above
because if I need to talk to anyone about directions or anything, she'll be there.
If I want to talk to anyone in the year above about directions I'll ask
ex boyfriend and all around awesome guy Max. We parted on good terms,
there's no tension and he's just generally brilliant. Not a girl who
stressed out my brother to the point of him breaking his non smoking
rule, cries and refuses to say why, thus destroying the point of crying
to get comfort, and most importantly to me, has sex with him next door
beyond a thin wooden wall. I can't do that. I'm distressed enough that I
have to put up with that at night, with her always hanging around. I'm
not befriending her.
Really, in so many ways, we're not cut out
for friendship. I don't like that my brother's girlfriend is in my
school. My parents just can't understand that. They still don't
understand my discomfort with sex. Sure, I know it, know how it works.
Doesn't mean I'm ready to be nice to someone who does it with my
brother.
So to sum up, lots of small things have built up
and I'm left in a state of not quite knowing how to feel any more. Let's
hope it's better tomorrow for school.
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