Just.... Sometimes.

I've always thought that gender is fluid, and I've long understood that some days, I feel like nothing fits me. Yes, I predominantly use and prefer male pronouns, but sometimes I don't.

I use the term genderqueer, because it seems to fit me best, but I think that's wrong now. Not by much, but slightly wrong.

Lately, I've lapsed into thinking about nail polish, I've had days where I feel perfectly content in tighter cut shirts that on other days make me feel utterly wrong.

I think that sometimes, just sometimes, I might like being a girl? It's weird, and it feels like I'm born male and considering being female sometimes, but that's just how I feel recently.

I haven't had much time to consider it with coming to Sweden and Moony dealing with a lot of stuff, but I really do wake up sometimes unsure who I feel like that day.

Hell if I'm going to mention this, to anyone but Moony, because it's difficult enough to convince people to accept my transition, and I do still want to transition. There is no doubt in my mind about that.

I just... I might sometimes wear more androgynous things, or things that boys would never dream of unless they were curious.

Lately, me and Moony have noticed my voice change. I've been told before that I sound more male, deeper. But lately, it seems to have reversed. Moony said something last night, and I suddenly realised how much lower her voice is than mine, and I don't know when this happened.

I guess we'll see how it goes. I'll try to work out what's happening and report back.